Last year when Bob and I were struggling to get pregnant and then struggling even harder to stay pregnant I felt like my heart was breaking. It took 5 months of pregnancy with Annie to calm down and realize that things were going to be okay. In one year we had 2 miscarriages, an ectopic pregnancy and an appendectomy thrown in for good measure. I had Annie via c-section and 6 weeks later was hospitalized for 5 days after having my gall bladder removed. It was at that point that I succumbed to the pity party of the century. All the pain and illness caught up to me and, embarrassingly enough, I laid in a hospital bed next to a transplant patient who had survived colon cancer crying and thinking "why me, why me, again!" I'm ashamed that with a gorgeous healthy newborn at home this was a very dark moment for me where I felt like I was being ganged up on by God - anyone who knows me knows I can be a bit wimpy about my own medical woes to begin with! Luckily my parents and Bob pulled me out of my pity party quickly and I spent the rest of my time off from work reveling in my new baby and watching my older kids adore her!
I awoke this morning feeling the exact opposite of that pity party - I sort of feel like God lobbed a big fat freebie at me in the form of our 4th child. I have to admit with so many friends and relatives facing fertility issues I feel a bit guilty being blessed again so quickly and so easily but I also know from experience that the baby that is meant for you will get to you somehow and we have less control than we would like to think over these things - just look at my three kids and the various ways that they became a part of our family!
There is absolutely nothing like seeing that positive sign on a pregnancy test. No matter how unexpected! (and trust me this was unexpected, even if incredibly wanted.) The pure joy and euphoria is still running through my veins nearly a week later. It is always mixed with some trepidation for Bob and I as we pray very hard that the baby will stay safely cushioned in my uterus. Most people wait a while to tell family and friends about a pregnancy but Bob and I have come to the conclusion that each life is valuable and should be celebrated so we opted to tell everyone even though we are only 6 weeks along. November 18th is the official due date and right now it seems a long long long way off! As with all good things - the wait will be well worth it!
Yes, Molly still loves to dress up her sister. Yesterday she found a headband for Annie to wear to church so they could be twins. I have to admit that Annie looked kind of cute and just seeing the pure happiness on Molly's face was wonderful. She dotes on this baby constantly. We thought sharing a room might at some point be an issue but Molly could not be happier to have Annie as a roommate. We'll see how she feels when she is a little older and can't get any privacy!
Annie with her headband and a pretty flower thrown in there for good taste! I never wonder where Ann gets her sweet laid back personality - she has been dressed up and smothered since the day she was born and she thrives on it!
Naked Baby picture because we won't be able to do it for much longer! How cute are those cheeks?
Peter enjoying a ride on his skateboard today at the skate park. Both kids love to go there even though they really could do the same exact thing in the driveway because they rarely use the equipment.
Okay - Molly uses the equipment to ride down on her bottom. She loves anything fast and with lots of motion. Molly begs to go on rides like roller coasters all the time - I have no idea where she gets that kind of bravery from - I get motion sickness even when I'm driving sometimes!
Annie Bananie watching the show that her brother and sister put on for her.
Daddy and Annie enjoying the beautiful day at the park. Is she the spitting image of him or what?
I know I drive people crazy with my camera but sometimes I am just amazed at the beauty in random moments of the day. Molly was concentrating on something and I just loved the look on her gorgeous face.
Molly takes Ann down the slide for a ride. Annie wasn't sure what to make of it but she eventually started to like it - especially since she was so securely wrapped in her sister's arms!
We are back at the skate park and my two little monkeys are worn out from all that "boarding"! Peter has always loved skateboarding but suddenly Molly is very into - I personally think it is just to be with her brother and, boy, are they cute together!
Minor wipe-out. Peter got up and laughed hysterically after this one. He is such a strong and coordinated little boy. So much fun to watch him develop his athletic personality. He is really into basketball right now and shoots hoops constantly. And one final note on the day. I made dinner for Karla and Pat for tomorrow night so instead of letting Bob bring it over I put our kids to bed in the hopes that when I got over there I might get to hold Katie for a bit. Turned out that all of the kids were still up so I got some quality time with all three kids who were a little hyper thanks to Auntie Kasey's late night visit. As I was leaving I was talking to Katie over Karla's shoulder and she gave me the sweetest little smile you have ever seen. It lasted for almost a whole minute and pretty much made my night! Sometime being an Aunite rocks!